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Stay With Yourself

by bhealthy on February 25, 2010
I mixed oats ( steel cut, gluten free) with almond milk and cottage cheese and microwaved the oats for a few minutes. I am going to be perfectly honest, I thought of making overnight oats as I was laying in bed and the thought of having to get out of my comfy resting place didn’t seem entertaining. So I stayed in bed, and fell asleep rather quickly! I threw the oats together in the morning, added extra cottage cheese after I nuked it to make it creamier, and voila. Topped with raspberries and cherries . These are frozen and the last of my frozen fruit which means a trip to the store is in store for me!

My opinion is that if you intentionally make more at dinner to have through-out the week, than it wouldn’t really be considered “left over” because it has a whole other purpose than its original meal… like my lunch!   I packed up lunch and took it to campus wee early in the am so that I could spend all morning studying for my exam.

Oranges are so juicy, and fresh, and full of zing. I remember when I was in South Africa, we would stop all the time on our journey from province to province and buy oranges from random stands… They were incredible.Who am I kidding, everything was incredible on that trip! I pretended I was back on that bus touring around like it was my job while I ate my lunch in the grad. room on campus.
Our professor brought in several Post-Exam treats for us:

I had a chocolate covered almond and I think 2 non-pareils …:-)
My dear friend who I have mentioned before on here, Andrea, she temporarily moved to California. Well she is back in town for this week and I couldn’t be more excited that we were having one of our ol’time get togethers for dinner last night.
She provided me with wine to celebrate now that I have 2 exams out of the way this week and can finally take a breather (sort of)!

She made turkey meatloaf using salsa, mashed potatoes with nonfat sour cream and smart balance, and fresh green beans mixed with balsamic vinegar & spices. We were so busy catching up while we put together our plates of potates and green beans that I forgot to photo the meatloaf ! Haha. 

Body:
Cycling class at the gym was really fun but really rough! Yes, my butt hurts. Ah well. The small price to pay for excellent physical activity.
Mind:
Two exams done, Work all weekend… More studying for 2 exams next week, Book Review due soon. It never ends!
Soul:
Time flies when you are having fun!  But my time recently has not all been fun. If you read my post, Single on Valentine’s, you found out a brief snippet of what I have been going through. I thought I would share some more reflection.

We all experience pain, stress, anguish. Its often easier for us to leave, to avoid what’s really going on, and use anything else to get us away. The irony is that the painful part has already happened, its not the present moment we need to get away from. Instead of running, distracting yourself or starting a total different conflict, why not just stay ?

Stay with yourself, cry, scream and yell, feel as if your heart is being pounded on like a drum. Sit with the guilt, or the sorrow, get help from friends… I feel like I have always been the runner, in every sense.  In the past few months, I have certainly stopped running away. However hard it was at first and no matter what I did, it became  annoyingly real that at the end of the day: I was still alive. When I finally stopped avoiding, or running, or using things to distract myself , I now feel more alive than ever. 

I recognized those thoughts, but stopping running from those thoughts as fast as I could in the opposite  any direction.  I found someone that was not my past or my future, or my habits or my compulsions. I am getting to know this new person, and I feel like anything is possible, even living through incredible pain.

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  • http://candidrd.blogspot.com The Candid RD

    I really admire your positive attitude and positive energy. Also, thanks for your comment on my blog. OF course I would admit when I am wrong, that’s the only way I learn, and the only way others learn. I never claim to be perfect, or to know everything. My goal is to give people the facts, and the truth, and if that means admitting I am wrong, so be it! I know many RDs who are like the one in your comment, it’s sort of sad, and scary….

    I think the turkey meatloaf sounds really tasty! I may have to try that. I’m a HUGE fan of meatloaf, but have never thought to make it with turkey….I don’t know why!
    Glad you are done with your exams. Now it’s time to relax :)

  • http://www.wakinguphungry.wordpress.com Lindsay (Waking Up Hungry)

    I belive this is my first comment on your blog, and I have to commend you on your strength. It is so much easier to run, but the journey you take when finding your true self is so worth the anguish it ignites. Soon, you’ll forget any pain you had, and completely be at peace with yourself. It’s a feeling like no other!

    Lindsay

  • http://www.beinghealthier.com bhealthy

    Thank you so very much Lindsay! I really appreciate that you took the time to comment! I love being able to re-read comments like yours often to regain that strength again and again!

  • http://www.beinghealthier.com bhealthy

    Gina/Candid- I can’t believe I didn’t photo it or get the exact recipe, but I must get it and try it! I made a lentil loaf based off another blogger’s recreation of a veganomican recipe- it was AWESOME! I never thought to use lentils for a meatloaf!!!

  • http://cookingwithjulieblog.wordpress.com/ Julie

    Ma the meatloaf! .. (wedding crashers haha!) Congrats on getting through 2 exams already!

  • http://eatingrd.com eatingRD

    I just adore your attitude! I’m one of those who likes to avoid confrontations and such, but it’s really important to get it out there and let it go I’m going to have to try cottage cheese in oats. first day of spin I thought my bum would never heal lol but now it’s not too bad :) great job on the exams! I’m always afraid I’ve forgotten stuff like I used to know like the back of my hand, plus it’s always changing! have a good weekend :)

  • http://itzyskitchen.blogspot.com Erica

    Congrats on finishing up the 2 exams!! And how sweet of your friend to make you din din (with wine!) I love non-pareils and would definitely have had a few of those puppers. Hope you have a good weekend

  • http://itzyskitchen.blogspot.com Erica

    hahahah- it was totally a GIANT pulled pork! I was laughing because I went to buy it for Josh while he went to get another beer sample. I’m like, here I am, the vegetarian, buying the largest pulled pork ever ;)