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Book Review: Fasting Girls by Joan Brumberg

Formal Book Review Submitted for FN 611: Lifecycle Nutrition, Meredith College

Brumberg, J.J. Fasting Girls: The History of Anorexia Nervosa. New York, Vintage Books; 2000. Vintage Edition, 374 pages. Price: $15.95. ISBN: 978-0-375-72448-0

Ever present and dynamic are societal ideals of beauty. As a reflection of this, eating disorders continue to grasp our society while more recently they have become characteristic of young females all over the world.  Fasting Girls: The History of Anorexia Nervosa details multiple case studies of young women, their varying motivations and consequences of purposeful starvation throughout history, and reveals cultural and biological evidence towards the identification of what is currently referred to as the modern disease of Anorexia Nervosa.  For those that believe eating disorders are more a recent “fad” or “trend”, Brumberg’s writing is a stimulus for a broad discussion about why rather than the prevalence of self-deprivation. This text is focused on the social and historical evidence that accounts for the flourishing rates of eating disorders today. Brumberg achieves her thesis quite thoroughly by giving readers the multi-faceted historical evidence that has been built into a multi-faceted modern disorder.

Let me assure you that societal ideals of skinny models are not the sole creator of this illness suffered by many young females today but have played their part as you will find in Fasting Girls. The culture of American society, nevertheless, favors slim as a “good thing” for a female to be (p.17) in the 21st century as such in 1920 or more so a “miraculous” thing in the 19th century as Brumberg narrates. I agree, with Brumberg’s introduction, that there is little possibility and ample room for argument against a single causation of Anorexia Nervosa as it is a complicated disorder with biological, psychological, and cultural models.

Seemingly an epidemic, the general public’s familiarity of eating disorders rose greatly in the 1980’s described in the first chapter of Fasting Girls. Despite the recent awareness, the official number of cases remains low due to the nature of the disorder. The secretive processes of hiding food, deceptive behavior and emotional turmoil for the family keeps this number of official cases low. While official reports may stay low, the susceptibility of young adult and adolescent females to this disorder can be observed through the increase in statistical reporting as Brumberg states is due to the amount of mass media attention to the disorder (p.17).  The vulnerability to eating disorders thus positively correlates with increasing social class, as classic anorectics appear to have always been young, female, white and from middle to upper-class families (p.15).

From Sainthood to Patienthood

In the second chapter, “From Sainthood to Patienthood”, Brumberg reveals that the fasting and restrictive behaviors characteristic of medieval spirituality did not engage males to the same degree or manner as females, making the female fasting a “miracle” (p. 43). My belief is that this female miracle gave birth to what ultimately has become the modern disease. Even though it is much more complex today, the disease remains a female experience in majority.

Brumberg discusses medievalist Rudolph Bell describing anorexia mirabilis of holy women such as Catherine of Siena as analogous to modern women with Anorexia Nervosa (p. 45). In both cases, appetite is not merely “lost” as claimed rather it is noted as under extreme control for whatever motivations are present in these women. Both women today and women of medieval times used food restriction as a means of control, whether it was to reach closer to God or further from their family.

The modern anorectic “is one of a long line of women and girls who have used food and the body as a focus of their symbolic language.” (Brumberg, p. 48). While I agree that anorexia mirabilis and nervosa could not possibly be the exact same, they originate in route from that symbolism and control.  This symbolism and control is evident in the interesting case of Ann Moore, who gained “transatlantic fame” (p.57) after the publicity of her “anorexy” in the early 1800’s.  Ann’s life is revealed as she married, separated, birthed out of wed-lock and became impoverished but also the way society reflected on her condition is importantly discussed.

The emaciated Ann Moore was claimed to be subsiding on air, having ingested only a few currants in over 4 years, which caused uproar by scientists, chemists, and clergy. Ultimately Moore was indeed secretly obtaining bites of food from her daughter, becoming a symbol of female deceit, “drawing substantial material gain from the earnest gifts of the pious.” (p.61). Brumberg details that society of that time was obsessed with the deception and few were interested in how Moore controlled her intake of such little food and lived. This fits with the obsession of society today, which contains a lack of regard for the how and why, instead focusing on quick fixes for maintaining a slender figure.

The Debate over Fasting Girls

Whether its emotions you are controlling to obtain a slender figure or spirituality you desire to express, the question of why any young females would fast or starve themselves seemed unanswered to those during Ann Moore’s chronicles. Brumberg really morphs into an architect in her third chapter, by adding control and family complexity with the cases of Sarah Jacob and Mollie Fancher to the foundation of medieval fasting and symbolism of Ann Moore.

The case study of Sarah Jacob, a fasting girl affected by “hysteria” chronicles the repercussions of actions before her (the deceit of Ann Moore) and controlling food intake as a means of gaining attention. The case of the “Welsh Fasting Girl” set the template for challenging the interpretation of Sarah’s behavior as opposed to just being fascinated with the wonderful girl who lived without eating. Food is required to live, although that is and was scientific knowledge, it is interestingly communicated in Brumberg’s description of the fate of Sarah Jacob.

Author and now architect, Brumberg, built an additional component to the map of Anorexia Nervosa: a family that was such a powerful influence in their daughter’s illness that it prevented her treatment and contributed to her fate, as a ”pattern of parental coaxing and indulgence that reinforced her behavior” (p.72). In the additional cases described such as Fancher’s, family complexity lies in the premature death of her mother and social status of her father.  Family issues are clearly established as having a role in eating disorders in this chapter and further examined in following chapters.

Modern Dieting
In the late 19th century, Anglo-American medical advice encouraged parental supervision of diet, clothing, exercise…and moral training of female adolescents (p.71). Unfortunately, the final chapter of Fasting Girls reveals that female adolescent weight control is still being promoted fifty years later in the 1920’s (p.248). The slender figure became a sign of heterosexual interest in the 1920’s because it was fitting in a society that could now separate sexuality from reproduction.  Brumberg states most women were eager for a thin body because it conveyed an instrument for fashion; it distinguished her from the matronly plump figures and ideals of service or self-sacrifice (p. 242).

The early female film stars are an example of this “new slim body” as described by Brumberg of swimmer- turned actress, Annette Kellerman.  With figure measurements of 35-26-37(chest, waist, hips in inches), Kellerman was considered to have a slender body and correct proportions slightly under 5’ 4” and 137 pounds. Today, this is considered normal weight for height (based on CDC charts for body mass index) and is interestingly a bit heavier than myself today at the same height. Kellerman did not appear to defend her stature as average or normal as many starlets feel the need to do today. Instead, she made statements regarding fat as clumsy, unhealthy, and ugly (p. 243), advocating a rather vain concept of exercising nude in front of a mirror to fuel the strive for ultimate beauty.
Kellerman is depicted in Fasting Girls as a significant twentieth-century figure, encouraging women to improve themselves through cultivation of their physical appearance. This further led to detrimental claims Brumberg discloses such as the lack of feminine beauty (per a slim figure and cultivated good looks) as the cause for increasing divorce rates in the late 1920’s (p.244). Brumberg describes the massive complication for women unable to handle the pressures of sexual allure and weight control through measuring their self-worth by restricting calories and now seeking additional compensatory mechanisms such as purging and drug use.

This final chapter in Fasting Girls is the cultivation of Brumberg’s architectural mapping of the history of Anorexia Nervosa. Brumberg had eloquently built upon case studies in each chapter, adding the role of female nature, parental supervision, societal reactions, and medical opinions throughout this book.  In later chapters, weight control and sexuality are tied in as well into what could now only be referred to as Anorexia Nervosa, a drastically different disorder from Anorexia Mirabilis or Hysteria as we might have thought before reading Fasting Girls.

Brumberg strongly distinguishes her stance on the medieval fasting behavior from modern anorexia when describing the miraculous loss of appetite in females (anorexia mirabilis) occurring because Christ or prayer provided these saints with alternative nourishment (p.47). This spirituality driven motivation provides evidence for Brumberg’s argument; There are different terminal routes of the ancient anorexia mirabilis and modern Anorexia Nervosa, as there is no alternative source of nourishment in the modern disease. Further supporting her argument, the modern female strives for physical beauty more so noted in the chapter “Modern Dieting”, rather than the quest for spiritual beauty in “From Sainthood to Patienthood.” Through her intricate mapping skills and architectural building, Brumberg builds the history for the reader piece by piece.

Brumberg claims the birth of anorexia nervosa in the 19th century, yet reveals fasting and restrictive behaviors were ever present from 1300 to 1800. This confliction was a weakness and confusing. Generalizing the existence of female food avoidance behaviors dating back to medieval times if not earlier in my opinion is the only way to find common origins. Of course, in time it gained further complications such as religion, hysteria, emotional control, family tension, physical cultivation to the ideal sexual image and finally became what the current diagnosis is today. Brumberg may be correct that just because a behavior occurs across a culture does not mean the behavior has the same origin, nonetheless, the behavior has occurred. The adolescent human learned it from somewhere. I feel that Brumberg was implying that medieval behaviors had no relevance in what developed in the 1870’s, to the 1920’s, and currently , which I find hard to fathom.

Another weakness is that the illustrations provided in the text are grouped in the middle on pages 185-204. As a reader, I would have attached myself more to the case descriptions such as Catherine of Sienna, Ann Moore, and Mollie Fancher had I seen their photographs in their respective chapters. My defense for this is that I am a modern female concerned with visual images of beauty.


Personal Reflection

The stigma that revolves around eating disorders is present today as it was in the 1870’s.  When I mention to anyone that I am interested in researching eating disorders or treating eating disorders as an R.D., I receive expressions of confusion and often a plethora of misinformation. In a recent assignment, I researched the career of R.D’s that specialize in eating disorders. When I presented the position to an audience of adolescent (white) females, I was met with near silence and awe.

I have had an interest in the field of eating disorder research since earning my Bachelor of Science in Neuroscience, fascinated by the interaction of brain and behavior.  Not many dietitians have such a background, which makes being aware of issues that face eating disorder treatment such as insurance coverage issues, the lack of care environments, and complexity important.  I feel that Fasting Girls contributes this to the field of nutrition and dietetics because it provides this insight into the fantastical history of eating disorders.

The fascination and stigma surrounding eating disorders quite possibly contributes to the lack of treatment-seeking; only one in ten individual’s suffering are actually in treatment (xvi). It is noted in Brumberg’s first chapter, various kinds of therapeutic services are now offered to treat anorexia ranging in cost for outpatient services at $25 a session upwards of $100 per session or over $30,000 for residential treatment in a special facility such as Renfrew Center or The Carolina House.  Fasting Girls gives the premise for professionals entering the field as to why these facilities even originated and their importance in fully treating individuals.

Fasting Girls is a reminder that we as Dietitians eager to counsel patients on food and nutrition must be aware that these individuals are controlling and using their appetite for food as a means of expression. It should be our hope but is not our sole responsibility to treat them, as it will require a team of professionals and family guidance or counseling as well. Just as with Sarah Jacob, family issues and psychological concerns can supersede nutritional nourishment and belabor treatment. Fasting Girls is a cautionary note for professionals in the field of nutrition and dietetics that are employed by families to “make this girl eat”.  There are many factors that will need to be addressed in persons with Anorexia Nervosa and this should always be kept in mind of the professional and family. Brumberg was hopeful this book would stimulate an inter-generational discussion and indeed it has.

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Be Brave & Try a Portabello Blue Cheese Burger


Taking time to enjoy the flowers this week.

Soul:

At hot yoga we were in camel pose ( for those that wouldn’t know this pose, it is a back bend in which your weight is on your knees and you reach your arms up and over behind you as you look back). I can normally do this pose with a fair amount of ease but for some reason, I was truly uncomfortable today. The instructor mentioned something about taking in the uncomfortable, and reaching beyond it to acheive change. Instead of coming out of the pose, I reached behind me because I knew this lack of comfort would pass. I knew that I could change, but I had to at least reach beyond my comfort in order to do so.

It is easy to be brave from a safe distance, so get closer, dig deeper, fight for what you want, be brave.

Body:

Tuesday: Rest!
I worked 6 hours in my new position, took a 20 minute breather and head to 6 hours for a GSA shift at Bonefish… long day

Wednesday: Express Circuit..
This was not a class or a specific workout but more just my own need for a mix up. I used the apartment gym and ran 2 miles as a warm up, performed one resistance training exercise for each body part, and then 20 minutes on the Elliptical. 

Thursday: Beach Volleyball!
Our team is still improving- we played three games and I snagged 10 points with my super awesome serve alone! Switching to a co-ed doubles team requires less communication but its more physical because every other shot, your partner is relying on you.  

Friday: Bikram!
I love this new Yoga studio but it was so incredibly hot this week for some reason. I think it was the larger class size, which resulted in my spot being right next to the heaters. Phew! I am glad I brought extra water, a big towel and extra clothes for after.

Mind:
I started working more with my new projects! Tuesday was all basics, Wednesday I had a great meeting on the lesson that is currently being worked on. It felt so fantastic to finally be in a position where I can offer input relating to nutrition while being paid and respected for it! I also had to research alterations for a brown rice recipe ( again, so cool that I get paid to do this!).

I was assigned a few additional projects, which I am eager to begin. This weekend I am studying for the third exam in Medical Nutrition Therapy, putting together my career portfolio for another class, and outlining our mock interviews.

Oh yes, and working at the restaurant of course. I do not know how I stay sane and manage it all sometimes, but then again, I have passion for what I do. I love my work, my field, and that makes it all much less work and more fun! I cannot wait until Summer though!

Speaking of summer, this week I decided to grab some of my favorite “Summer” foods like Strawberries and Watermelon!! YUM!

Breakfast:
In my educated and experienced opinion, when you work 12 hour days, it is best to be prepared nutritionally otherwise you will just not perform well! So I knew exactly what I would take with me for breakfast ahead of time that was easy and tasty: A Green Smoothie!

I mixed Green Goddess Juice (which boasts 12 servings of fruit and veggies per bottle ( 2 per 8 oz), Almond Milk, Banana, Pineapple, Protein Powder and a splash of cream for this smoothie.

FANTASTIC!

Lunch at Work-

Leftover Pasta (in previous post) and Kale ( I know, not much of a mix up!)

Snack:

Strawberries, half of a PB&J and a Yogurt ( Lemon Chiffon)….

Dinner:


Tilapia,  rubbed in olive oil, seasoned with lemon pepper and squeezed lemon juice after it was finished.

Steamed veggies on the side and I also made a quick Mango Salsa for the fish using frozen/thawed Mango, Pineapple, freshly diced Red Onion, Watermelon, Salt and Pepper. It was AWESOME!

I was still hungry so I had some more watermelon and more salsa too€.

The other meals this week included:

Honey Nut Chex, Watermelon…

Zone Perfect- Dark Chocolate Cookies & Cream (talk about Yum!)

Leftover Pasta

 and…. today we went out to a “business lunch” with the office as sort of a break from the norm. I alwasy order salads because I love VEGETABLES. However, I took my own advice from the beginning of this post and was Brave- reached way beyond my comfort and ordered a Portabello Blue Burger with freshly made Sweet Potato Fries…

one word only: AWESOME!

I cannot believe another week has flown by and we only have about three weeks left of spring semester!

What are your weekend plans?

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What goes up must come down…

I was so eager to run this weekend because the weather was going to be gorgeous and I finally had some time to breathe in between work, school, work, and life! Phew! I am glad to report my goal was accomplished, here are the details:

Body:

Friday- Hilly Run at the Lake… One loop around is 2.96 miles. However, I like to run the 2.25 that is all hills, turn around and run back through the hills again.

What goes up…

Must come down…

Saturday:  NEW  YOGA!
( new for me anyhow~ still on a mixing it up phase). I finally went to Hot Yoga at this newer studio downtown that a former colleague of mine began teaching at. This was my first class in HOT YOGA ever and oh my goodness, I was SOAKED with sweat! I could barely see out of my eyes I had that much sweat dripping down my face. It was an amazing stretch though and I really enjoyed how the instructor pushed me ( disappointed at first that it wasn’t my friend as expected). She said I did an amazing job at my first class! I felt so silly though I forgot a towel and a bottle of water!  Note to anyone going to a Hot Yoga class- Take a big towel or Two and ice water.

Sunday: REST!
I think pretty much every muscle in my body was sore! I had to work early in the day which meant I got off early. The first thing I did was come home and take a nap, I needed the rest!

Monday: RUN!
Headed back to the lake for  8 miles! I ran around twice and then out and back to make an even 8.

Mind:
Finished my work on Professor Popcorn for EFNEP! It feels amazing to have all 6 grades finished and wow, what a great project!

Worked all weekend at the restaurant- not too slammed because of March Madness still going on. This weekend will be interesting to see if we are once again super busy!

My new work begins this week at EFNEP and I have fun assignments to work on for the rest of the semester: A video on Lyme Disease, a Video on Portion Control and Nutrition Labeling for a Diabetes clinic,  Two “fake” counseling sessions…

Soul:

I snapped this on campus. It just reminds me to BREATHE! I am using that in the metaphorical sense and physical. Sometimes we find ourselves just moving along in life, a to b, b to c, c to d. I love to take moments ( like this one while on campus) to play “Catch up” with your thoughts, your actions, and your goals. Much like my hilly run, things are always going up but they eventually must come back down. Enjoy both the ups and the downs.

Catch up on my Eats:

Breakfast was Puffins, Half of a Grapefruit ( still craving grapefruit!), Blueberries and a clump of Cottage Cheese.

A tall tale for lunch:

Steamed Kale ( lemon juice, capers, hot sauce) with Brussel Sprouts for my dark green vegetables.

Tuna mixed with a spoonful of cottage cheese and a big brown rice tortilla to put it all into!

Dinner:

I’m just a “Steak and Potatoes” kinda gal. I found these Bison Medallions at Whole Foods when shopping with my Mom awhile ago.

They looked interesting and we were both wondering if they actually tasted like steak or something else. I knew Bison Meat was possibly the leanest of meats around, this definitely fit that mold! One of the 6-oz medallions had 37 grams of Protein and 180kcal. Which means, that 148 of 180 kcals are from only Protein.

The verdict ?!?! Well… Because Bison meat is so incredibly lean, it really has no fat at all to tenderize it. I would suggest beating the crap out of ( a technical term ;-) ) the medallions prior to cooking to break up the lean tissue and allow them to be tender. The flavor was fantastic, just like steak, and they were actually quite juicy but very hard to chew because of the lean-ness! I paired the “Steaks” with a microwaved sweet potato ( local!) and Asparagus spears that I grilled on the foreman after the Bison with Lemon Pepper Seasoning.

These were my meals from Saturday…Breakfast:

Pineapple and Mango,  a slice of Brown Rice Bread covered in Almond Butter and a Fage Greek Yogurt for Vitamin D, Calcium and Protein! This was all well digested for yoga at 9 am…

Lunch: Another Brown Rice Tortilla Wrap ( I am loving these!) with some reduced fat cheese and buffalo chicken lunch meat. Normally I tend to stay away from lunch meat usually because of the high salt (and processing) but I really enjoy the buffalo seasoned chicken from Deitz & Watson. After losing about 5 pounds of water weight from yoga, I needed the salt replacement anyhow so no harm no foul. I also was craving this refreshing orange!

Dinner:

Notta Pasta is Rice Pasta and it was on sale this week so I grabbed some and paired it with a semi-homemade tomato sauce. I used a small (6oz) can of tomato sauce with roasted garlic, a 12 oz can of Tomatoes with Balsamic Vinegar and Olive Oil, and a 1/4 of the remaining Trader Joes Marinara I had in the fridge. It was really good!

I sprinkled fresh rosemary in the middle as well. (I’m glad I have the blog so I can remember to make it again in the future!) !

What are your plans for the week? What has been your ups and downs lately?

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Eggseptional Good Friday

I decided to have fun and draw on my eggs… What is that you say, No one else does that? Oh…;-) Check out the bottom of the post for more photos of these guys!

Body:

Saturday: Rest

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Cycling!

I went to the hour long morning class just to see how it compared to the evening and I was SO impressed with the sweat I got out this morning instructor’s class (Stacy). My butt is finally adjusting to the seat so no more soreness in that department!

Tuesday: Yoga Meltdown.

There are several exercise programs that are Free OnDemand and I was excited this month, Jillian’s yoga meltdown is free too. I am going to be honest, I do not really like this woman but I do like the moves she come up with!  If you were in her position, the natural progression to selling supplements is not at all surprising to me because America goes for the “quick fix” all the time.

Wednesday: RUN RUN RUN RUN!

I was so pumped for a long run. I left right after my class got out as it was cooling down on Wednesday evening and ran, and ran, and ran, and ran. Well…at least until the sun went down

about 1 hr + 15 minutes later. So based on time, kcal burned and the route it was about 8-9 miles.

Thursday: Co-ed Beach Volleyball League! My partner Luke and I played even BETTER than last week! We were ahead for most of the first game and then made a comeback in our second, but our success still lies in our improvement.

Mind:
The Power of Positive Thinking!

I studied in concentrated bits all weekend ( in between shifts at work and visiting with family) so that on monday all I had to do was just will myself to do well on this test! I literally said to myself over and over .. “100,  100,  100!!!” in a similar fashion that my previous yoga instructor would motivate the class with “Yoga Yoga Yoga!” It reminded me that I can get 100, I have the ability, I have the knowledge, and I can! I will be sure to report the results as soon as we get them back.

I had to switch gears though into finishing my latest book and writing a formal book review for it. I made the outline last night and started writing. After working on it all morning, I finished it up and handed it in this afternoon. That feels AWESOME!

Somehow I managed to fit in tutoring a student for the upcoming Metabolism exam (that was today), Work four shifts at Bonefish, Work at EFNEP, and get in all my other courses and coursework. I cannot wait for summer when I can focus on just full-time work at EFNEP!

Soul:

“Success is something you attract by the person you become”….

I really believe that misery loves company but success loves company too! I have been relating success and soul lately but I hope to convey that being successful is not the same as making money or staying busy. For a long time, I felt a bit lost in the world because I wasn’t sure what I wanted out of life, what I wanted to do or where I was going. I have become a much different person just in the past few months and it feels great! I think it is because of my change, because of the person I desire to be, that everything else begins to fall in place on a journey toward success. I love playing volleyball again, I am balancing everything in my life as best I can and trying to enjoy every step.

Here are just a few days of eats- I thought these were the most interesting because you can see how I eat differently on days that I run-
Breakfast Monday was Chocolate Almond Milk, Wheat-Free Cereal, and Banana Slices

Lunch On Monday:

Kale Salad with Tuna and Greek Yogurt inside a Brown Rice Wrap ( the apple was just there… it wasn’t actually something I ate)

For the Kale salad I mimicked Whole Foods by adding avacado, red onion and some lemon juice to Kale- delicious!

Dinner:
Leftover Ahi Tuna, Kale Salad with big chunks of Avacado, Red Pepper, Sweet Potato- It’s like a rainbow on my plate!

(  I had gotten the Sashimi at work this weekend and brought home leftovers- the photos did not turn out well from that meal!)

Wednesday ( My Run Day)

Steel Oats , Almond Butter and an Orange.

Lunch on The Go: Puffins in a Smoothie

Here is the smoothie: Green Goddess Juice, Almond Milk ( and protein)

Then I added puffins and “Drank” my cereal right through that hole- it was perfect! No spoon required.

Snack ( Yes I eat snacks but not everyday!) before Tutoring

Trail Mix Bar and an organic Fuji Apple ( I think it was that mysterious apple sitting on the table on monday that inspired me to buy apples this week!)

After tutoring and in my afternoon class, our professor brought us in a treat! She is Chinese and was describing a story to us about when she first started college here. She had to make “rice cakes” which in the U.S are those light, airy crispy wafers. Her “rice cakes” are these guys:

They use rice and grind it into a fine flour, then mix it al together and use it almost like a fondant to cover a sweet jelly inside. It was surprisingly really good, not too sweet, gummy, interesting. There were others covered in sesame seed- but I wasn’t a fan of those.

Post Run Dinner:

Eggs

I decided to have fun with my eggs after a friend sent me this ”eggseptional email”..

:) I put them all into a blue corn tortilla and munched on lots of veggies

Could you tell the difference?

It’s Good Friday and almost Easter! What are your Easter plans?

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Happiness and Success

Body:

Thursday volleyball was SO much fun! I don’t know what I was thinking but I was certainly not prepared for how different coed pairs for beach volleyball was than the kind of volleyball I played in college ( on gym floors with a big ol team)! It took me awhile to warm up  but I am really HAPPY that I joined. Despite that we were not successfull in winning any of our 6 games, the games took about 2 hours and each game we played we gave the other team more and more! I think our last game we only lost by a couple of points. Improvement = Success

My forearms and biceps are SORE! I decided that for Friday I wanted to shake out any of the soreness with a moderately intense workout. I just did what I felt up for on Friday so that I could take Saturday as the essential “rest” day!   Friday’s workout was a 4 mile run at the gym at a moderate pace ( finished in 32 minutes) and then some light upper body I focused on push ups, abs, shoulder raises and some ham curls.

Mind:
I am studying this weekend for my exam on monday and luckily have a few extra days for my book review!

Potential new job opportunity, but I want to wait and see how the second interview goes before I discuss it on here.

Soul:

To best climb the ladder of success,  step on the rungs of opportunity.

Ladder

Still trying to mix it up with the eats this week…

Breakfast:

Half of a grapefruit, which was perfectly juicy, sweet, slightly bitter and very refreshing paired with some whole grain (non wheat) cereal, almond milk, and half of a banana.

Yes, there is almost always peanut butter in my breakfast. Old habits die hard.

Lunch:

I decided to take a trip to whole foods for lunch again because I just loved my lunch there earlier this week. I was very eager for more Kale because the quality in the bulk bins has been local but less than stellar- I was secretly wishing for some great Kale on the whole foods bar and my wish was granted!

They had Kale with Olive Oil, Tomatoes and Cranberries which was delicious! This took up the top left of my plate. I stuffed the bottom left of my plate with another Kale “salad”, Kale with Avacado and Red Onion ( kind of like a kale guacamole salad).  I added a few fresh and colorful veggies like yellow bell pepper and some deep purple cabbage to the left side.

On the right side, I was so pleased to find pad thai made with rice noodles, lemongrass, zuchinni, carrots and cashews so I put a little scoop of that topped with a small (2 oz) section of Vietnamese Chicken. I also added a little Red Quinoa salad (made with red quinoa, amaranth, roasted garbanzo beans and cilantro) and there is a secret piece of grilled tofu as well ( near the middle left).

Talk about variety! I just love getting everything but the kitchen sink into these Whole Foods lunches. The cost of this was only $6.90 and I munched on my leftovers late in the afternoon with this guy for snack

Chocolate Yogurt! Oikos has had these out for a little while now and I was not too eager to try them to be honest. I am a huge fan of chocolate, but I think it needs to be done the right way. Yogurt and chocolate to me do not make a good match but I thought “What the heck, I’ll give it a try”.

It was really quite tasty, and I like that it is made from organic milk, about 100 kcal and 9g of protein!

For dinner, I had a few slices of this guy

Ahh, I haven’t had pizza in ages it seems.

I feel like this was an ideal example of eating exactly what you want but pairing what you want with what is healthy. I had my fruits and veggies but I had my treats as well. :) If getting what you want is “success”, then happiness is wanting what you get.

How do you make yourself happy ?

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Mixing it Up!

I think “mixing it up” ( the title of this post) is so important to do with all aspects of your life ever so often. Too often I find myself repeating the same workouts, repeating the same foods, etc. just because it’s easy, safe and familiar or maybe because I’m too busy to think of something new at the moment! I decided I need to mix things up this week and I will be trying hard to do this in an effort to keep things fun! So far this week, I think I have done quite well

Body:
Monday : Cycling

Tuesday: Rest!

Wednesday: 4 mile Run

Thursday will be… Volleyball! I just signed up with my friend that invited me to Toast to the Triangle for a Co-Ed league on Thursday nights and I am pumped.

Mind:

We have “practice” counseling sessions to work on in the near future for both Medical Nutrition Therapy class and I have to do another session in Nutrition Education and Counseling class. I also have TWO videos to create, one for microbiology on Lyme Disease and another video for Nutrition Education and Counseling class as a project to give to a Diabetes Clinic. More on those next week probably!

Soul:
“Dreams are today’s answers to tomorrow’s questions.”

I have been mixing up the eats too.. Found these new spring treats at Trader Joes

Yes I had four- an egg, a bunny, a chick and a sheep!
Okay, some more substantial food included Puffins in a Smoothie for breakfast

No folks, this looks just like regular cereal and milk but this a special nutritent powered Mixed Up cereal and milk.  I took Almond Milk + Protein Powder ( 1/2 scoop), Frozen Pineapple, and Almond Butter and blended away. The Puffins have 5g of fiber per serving, which means I got in Whole Grains, Fruit, Lean Protein, and Healthy  Fats all into one bowl!

Lunch:

Whole Foods! I was so excited to grab the hot bar/salad bar since its been awhile and my last experience with the salads on campus was just AWFUL! This guy came to $6.29  (not including my drink) – cheaper than a campus meal and WAY better!

There was:
Pulled Pork with Apples and Cabbage Slaw (right)
Kale with Roasted Garlic Dressing and Fresh Raw Veggies: Tomatoes, Purple Cabbage, Red Bell Pepper ( Bottom)
On the back left is a Fresh Spring Mix, topped with a sprinkle of feta, sundried tomatoes, and a few pieces of italian cubed mozzarella.

Dinner:
I finished up the leftovers from my lunch ( I ate 3/4 of it for lunch)… but made a big ol pot of Rice Noodles with Newman’s Own Sockarooni Sauce and added spinach..

Breakfast
Egg Burrito:

Filled a Brown Rice Tortilla with Scrambled eggs (3 egg whites, 1 yolk) and topped with Salsa.. Fruit On the Side ( Mangos, Pineapple, Blueberries)

Lunch:
Pasta leftovers ( okay not so much mixing but I added okra, yellow squash, onions and reduced fat feta from TJ)

Snack…

Trail mix Bar

Dinner…  to be determined!

How do you mix things up ?

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Rest & Relaxation… Reading & Running

Let’s see… What ever did I do on my spring break? Well, I finally took a break from all this nonstop nonsense of three jobs +, full-time classes, blog writing, and career advancing to just chill out with what I love best!

Body:

… 5 mile run out in “farm country” aka my parents house…

Yoga- Dave Farmar’s latest podcast

and …6 mile Run out at the lake ( finally its warm again! the lake is one of my favorite loops because of the hills it has and yes, I do them twice for the 6 mile total.)

My first loop took me longer than usual, I walked for a bit initially to warm up etc. (28 minutes)

My second loop was back to normal for me at 24 minutes +

I can’t believe I have been running around this lake for 6 years now!!!
Wow, it makes me feel old but it feels like home (almost)…
I started running here after my long days of teaching, it was the perfect release of any stress back then but now I just find it so enjoyable. I always wanted to take photos but never brought out a camera!

Mind:

…. okay there was a bit of reading but it was at the beach ( necessity!)

Soul:
Got in some spring-time beach-time while listening to the ocean waves crashing on the shore!

Since I was on break, I decided to take it easy on the photos too. I knew I just wouldn’t have time to post about all of my eats so here are a few.

I have been back on the oatmeal kick that reminds me of my college days- it was oatmeal for breakfast… or lunch.. or even dinner sometimes back then.  Oatmeal provides an excellent source of soluble fiber, whole grains, good source of protein AND it is also a good source of iron (although nothing can beat red meat for that).  Because of the protein and fiber, oatmeal helps keep you full and satisfied!

I had a fruity, swirly mess by adding some blueberry preserves, frozen blueberries, raspberries, and blackberries…and yes, the essential scoop of peanut butter

A “trail mix” oatmeal with dried apricots, dried plums, almonds, pistachios, crushed pecans, and sunflower seeds ( and of course, a scoop of peanut butter)

Quick Lunch of Vanilla Oikos Greek Yogurt and lots of this pre-cut fruit, whcih included Mango, Pineapple, Canteloupe and Grapes.

and the only dinner photo that I liked recently was

Turkey medallions with green beans, sweet potatoes, white potatoes, and a big organic spring mix salad
This week is going to be rough so I needed the R&R. I have work galore, studying for an exam, finish reading my book I started at the beach ( yes it is for class!),  write the review for the book, finish my 10 pg research paper. I am looking forward to a training for my new job, yoga class at the gym, finishing up these papers and the weather!

What are you looking forward to this week?

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Irish Goddess

Happy St. Patrick’s Day to Everyone!!  Yes, I am nearly half Irish, and I guess I could call myself an Irish Goddess but the goddess part is all about my food these past few days! The weather has been gorgeous and I have been BUSY!

Body:
Sunday:  “New Record”~ It was a PR for time for me… Nov. 2008 (click here for that post) I ran my first official 8K in 42 min. +….This Sunday I ran the 5.1 in 39 minutes + !!!

Monday: Spinning at the gym for a running break. I wish they had a good yoga class on monday nights, but the spin class was really fun! As I pulled into my parking spot after class, this lady jumped ontop of my car!

She proceeded to climb on top of my hood, meowing angrily the whole time. I think she was pissed that her owner left her out in the cold. I am really allergic so I didn’t want to take her in, but I did go inside to get a blanket and tuna to bring out to her. Her owner must have scooped her up during that time… Thank goodness, I felt bad for her!

Tuesday: Rest day!

Wednesday: Not sure yet… I need yoga… and probably a quick run or cycling.

Mind:
Big Job News

I was recently promoted to a “GSA” at the restaurant (Bonefish Grill) I’ve been working at since August. So this past week, I transferred to a new store to get better hours!  I am (so far) really happy and excited because this new store needed major help with front of the house issues. I have gotten to do some training with a newly hired hostess and I’m seeing improvements already, which is so rewarding! I was quite nervous going in because its new people and I’m basically “taking charge” but so far I’ve gotten alot of compliments from everyone there about how things are running!

EVEN MORE BIG NEWS!

Every April I get nervous for summer. Why? Well since re-starting this whole college life in grad school, I have had difficulty finding employment ( in general and) for the summer. You see, my 3 years of teaching, being a former Director of a Children’s Fitness center and Bachelor’s in Neuroscience are all wonderful things but leave me overqualified for a summer gig!

This past friday, I got a full-time position working in the Food and Nutrition Program at NC State! ( I am currently working there part-time/temporary right now)!!! AND … here is one of the greatest parts:

They will essentially be paying me to finish my Master’s Degree!

All I have left is the practicum/thesis ( which is the big research project everyone must complete) … I will be doing this right now and into the summer while gaining this invaluable experience with a state and federally funded program! If you remember my post on The Blob.. I have been  working on the curriculum for the youth department, which is Professor Popcorn. This curriculum is used to educate mostly school-aged children at schools but is geared towards lower income families ( It is a federally funded program).

I am now mixing my experience updating the youth curriculum ( I am finishing the last few lessons this week!) and combining it with the adult curriculum for a new program called Healthy Families Healthy Communities. This concept teaches both at the same time ( kids + Parents) and shares a meal together. So cool.

Soul:
Sometimes it can be so hard to remember but there really are people out there who love you just the way you are .

Let’s check out some of my eats, because thats probably what you are mostly here for!!

My favorite cereal, Puffins,  for breakfast…

Hidden Blueberries underneath

Green Smoothie

(Green  Goddess Juice, Almond Milk, Tomato Juice, Vanilla Protein, Splash of Cream- It was SO DELICIOUS!)

Taco Tofu!

Trader Joes Refried Beans ( fat free) and a little shredded cheddar, 365 Organic Haricot Verts (green beans), and Tofu Seared with Spicy Seasoning in the Skillet…

Another quick breakfast…

Greek Yogurt with a Slice of Rice Bread, covered in Almond Butter. Blueberries on the side.

A lunch…

Big ol salad of organic greens with pre-cooked chicken strips, mushrooms, and mixed veggies. Of course I had Annie’s Goddess Dressing.

I was treated to dinner at the restaurant for doing training with new staff- Unfortunately, I do not bring my phone inside work because I cannot keep track of it while working ( and its an expensive phone!) So no pic of dinner but I had 1/4 of the Cajun Chicken Egg Rolls, which are filled with Blackened chicken, roasted corn, onions and peppers, served with a tangy mustard sauce. ( I split this with the trainees!)  I had The Salmon and Asparagus Salad. GRILLED SALMON & ASPARAGUS SALADImage’s from www.bonefishgrill.com..

Grilled Salmon and Asparagus Salad

Pecan Crusted Goat Cheese, Fresh greens, Grilled Salmon topped with Pesto, and perfectly cooked & chilled Asparagus.

Another quick breakfast: Apple Pie Yogurt with Cottage Cheese and a big juicy Orange

Have you already celebrated St. Patrick’s Day? Anyone drinking green beer today?

I officially am on Spring Break as of Friday but have been interviewing and working and training and reading since! Today is my official “mind relax” day ! No work today and maybe no school work either- Recharge time.

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New Record!

5.1 miles

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Eating Disorders or Disordered Eating

* Note: This is a long post that is out of the typical post I write here. I know many readers were interested in the topic. Supply and Demand!*

When we are stressed, the first thing many people change is their eating habits. Stress tends to make us act differently and we cannot avoid stress entirely, stress can be healthy to push us forward or prevent us from making a mistake.

It is our behavioral response to the stress that alters our normal habits. Some people exercise to relieve stress, some people do the opposite-get extra sleep or go to a day spa for a massage. Some people respond to stress by chatting it out with friends, or drinking it up with friends, some unconsciously avoid eating, others eat to soothe themselves from the stress.

These responses can be minor events. Say you down a pint of Ben n Jerry’s over a bad break up or you have three too many adult beverages at the pub because your boss yelled at you… Okay, life doesnt’ stop there, you know it , you get over it, and move on back to normal the next day or maybe two days post-hangover. This post is all about when you DON’T…( don’t stop, know it, get over it, move on)

Why was that disordered? It’s disordered because the intent of using ice cream or alcohol is to make you feel better, or to make you not feel at all.  This is not what food and beverages are intended for. Food and beverages are intended to provide nutrition, fuel for the activities and demands placed on your body.  When drinking or eating, you can ask yourself “Am I really hungry” “Do I really need this bag of chips to live?” … The answer is often no. We can still have those things that we want, the ice cream, the alcohol, the chips though.

Why “disordered” can be normal…The occasional slip to that habit is pretty normal when it remains an occasional slip, once every few months…that is occasional. We run into problems with our health and well-being when those events happen every friday, then every friday and saturday, then the occasional tuesday, then every stress turns into soothing yourself with food. It is a risky habit that can become the naturally coping mechanism for many people.

Purpose and Consistency

The purpose behind the eating and how consistently you eat that way is what can distinguish normal eating from disordered eating, and also disordered eating from “clinical eating disorder”, although with those, comes additional diagnostic criteria found below.

When your decision about what to eat and how to eat is compulsive, inflexible, and resolving underlying emotional issues- There is problem. That is disordered eating. It is the misuse of food to resolve problems ( that problem not being hunger- resolving physical hunger by eating food is “normal” !). Many of us are emotionally or spiritually hungry, which we mistake for physical hunger.

We can also suffer from disordered eating for much longer and without resolve because we lack acceptance of it as a problem, “oh I just had to have some chocolate”, “oh I just have to have a drink”, “I’m just going to eating this bag and stop there…. I’m just going to stop at 2, okay 3″… “I deserve some…” …
The purpose becomes, “keep eating to avoid dealing”. It becomes consistently the way we handle the stress.

Good News: Disordered Eating can often (not always) resolve without formal treatment when we recognize the problem and deal with the emotions in the most appropriate way. Sometimes it is a matter of knowing ourselves better, accepting our abilities more, realizing “It is not my trip” when others cause you stress. Finding a new job that is more fulfilling, taking a new path that leads you to better decisions, giving up control of things that you need not control and focusing on living your life the way you want. It involves becoming conscious of the moment and consequences.

Bad News:

Eating in disordered ways can also lead to more severe, unhealthier habits, which can fit diagnostic criteria for eating disorders (E.D). 40% of college women displayed disordered eating and attitudes (Cordero & Israel, 2009), whereas 6% met diagnosis of  anorexia or bulimia nervosa. Lives are usually not as deeply impacted by unhealthy views on appearance, exercising a bit too much, emotionally soothing through food.

I am posting the criteria because for I feel that eating disorders are not “talked about” enough.  People seem to make assumptions about what they are, what they mean, or the social stigma involving them. I strongly feel that this is what helps keep the cycle going, no one wants to talk about the nitty gritty or face the conflict so girls keep falling into these habits, getting deeper into disorders. By posting the criteria, I also hope that it could help if you suspect yourself or someone you love is affected by an E.D, that you can find ways to help them.

Anorexia Nervosa

Anorexia is a term used to define “lack of eating” or “loss of appetite”, it can occur with medical conditions, medication, etc. Anorexia Nervosa is a clinical eating disorder that involves:

1. Refusal to maintain body weight , maintaining a body weight less than 85% of ideal body weight for height/age

2. Intense fear of gaining weigh or becoming fat, despite being underweight

3. Disturbance in the way one view’s their body weight & shape, Denial of underweight

4. Amenorrhea ( in females, absense of at least three consecutive menstrual cycles).

Medical complications include: extremely dry skin ( lack of protein and fat for cells to maintain integrity), hypothermia ( same reasons as dry skin), hypotension, edema, anemia, infertility, osteoporosis, cardiac failure, and death ( from starvation, severe electrolyte imbalances).

As you can see, in addition to the disordered eating habits (intentionally not eating to avoid …denial …), these criteria make it a “clinical eating disorder” vs. just habits.

Bulimia Nerovsa

  1. Eating in a discrete period of time, an amount of food that is definitely larger than most would eat during a similar period of time, with lack of intention to fuel appropriately ( i.e you would obviously need to a larger than normal amount of food after you complete a triathalon, the intent is completely different)
  2. Inappropriate compensatory behavior in order to prevent weight gain.
  3. Recurrent episodes of such eating in #1 in addition to compensatory behavior in #2 for more than twice a week for more than 3 month

Medical complications: erosion of dental enamel, dental caries, menstrual irregularity, laxative dependences, electrolyte imbalances, gastric rupture, cardiac arrhythmias, and chronic pancreatitis.

As you can see, there are severe complications associated with these disorders. Unfortunately, it doesn’t seem that they are going away anytime soon for plenty of reasons. Even just a few years ago, no one ever talked about Depression or Erectile Dysfunction and now you see commercials for all kinds of anti-depressants and little pills to take. I think the more that we become aware of these issues, we can better deal with them and hopefully stop this cycle of eating disorders in the U.S.

Why is it seen much more in the U.S than anywhere else?

I feel the reason why it is much more prevalent here in the U.S is because we lack the awareness of the consequences to eating. Food has calories, that is its PURPOSE! I think we as a nation try to come up with “low calorie” foods or diets, we seek ways to “cheat” the system by taking out the fat, or bulking up the protein. We seem to forget that we eat to give us energy to function. We also eat for social reasons, gathering around the family dinner table is a social and comforting event as it should be! Even in paleolithic times, food was hunted for ( physical activity) and gathered ( grocery shopping), prepared in bulk for the tribe (cooking family meals), and enjoyed because of all that was put into it gave it value!

It is the fact that food is available to us in any format, everywhere we go in the U.S. It makes us “less responsible” for the actions of eating, less hunting, less gathering, less enjoyment for true value of food. In many other countries, people are working hard, farming hard, and walking miles to grocery stores just to access food.

What do you think?

If you suspect that you or someone you love might fit the criteria for either Eating Disorder or Disordered Eating- there are many places to go for help:

Renfrew Center Resource Guide

Renfrew Center Helpful Links

Help is a Click or Call Away at The National Eating Disorder Association

I look forward to reading your comments and thoughts on this post!

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